You cant’ take everyone with you.
This is the deep sadness that I sit with in this moment. The paradox is that I know this. I know that everyone is on their own journey, and I value that so deeply. Choosing to double down on the matrix instead of implementing any exit strategy is the choice that lies before us all, and the choice is an individual one. It will affect each of us very personally as well as affect the trajectory of mankind. We are at a crossroads. Which path will you choose?
I am currently witnessing those I love dearly, double down on outsourcing to the matrix and the intensification of their rapid decline as a result. It is so painful to know what can help and be able to do nothing. My old friend the great blue heron has recently come back into my life. He has been my animal totem for as long as I can remember. He was strong with me from childhood through to meeting my soulmate. However, I found him much more elusive for the first decade of our marriage. This would be a decade marked by my deepest involvement with society. When we moved onto our sacred piece of earth and began to reconnect with nature, I began to see heron again, here and there.
When I began working with intentional imagery, I tried bringing heron into my circle, but he just wouldn’t stay. Just this year, he stays with me. I can enter my sacred space, sit on a flat rock in my lotus filled pond and he approaches and allows me to stroke his feathers. In corporeal life, heron sightings are way up for me. I’m certain we have one frequenting our creek. I see him flying the length of it often.
Heron is now with me to help anchor the skill of stillness that I have been cultivating these past few years. In the Human Design framework, I am designed to “wait to respond” and then ride an “emotional wave” before commitment. The heron has been excellent medicine for this. When I feel my mind looping over something I have no control over, I simply call forth heron and stroke his feathers to calm my nervous system down. Waiting to respond is something that I can do. Preemptively getting involved in the journey of my fellow wo/man is not helpful to him or her and is a waste of my energy. I am so loving the heron medicine right now.
What is most confronting for me related to unplugging is losing those that are doubling down. It’s the communication side of it all. I truly believe that once this level of bifurcation is complete, the tech dependent vs. the nature interdependent, we won’t be able to perceive one another any longer. I’m already seeing indications of this. I recently offered tarot readings for cash donations at an event and made very little because I do not use venmo. The coordinator wanted to share my facebook page or instagram with everyone afterward and I do not use those social media tools. I only use Telegram because it is reminiscent of the old chat room days and it fosters conversation closer to a real level, but even it has drawbacks.
What I really desire cannot easily be found online. It must happen in person. Many beautiful souls have magnetized to us here in our neck of the woods. I am going to place my efforts there, with real love, laughter, tears and hugs. I will keep up my moonthlies and write and share as inspiration strikes. I will check my email, so reach out through the contact form on my site if you want astrology services from me. I am happy to customize based on your needs and desires.